Having had several bad issues

I have dealt with a Judas or two

I have been cast aside a time plus

I am not happy and am trying

But things are Semper Fi at best

But that doesn’t pay the bills

Now I go after those in question


Popping pills and bottles

I must wonder if

I am doing too much

Lost a lot

Lost a lifetime

Many memories

Many moments

Now I am here and doing it

Not sure where I will end up

Not caring



While trying to bleed out

Make sure to have pain killers

Make sure you are in a tub

Also slice upward and not across

A warning as you’d be admitted

So do not attempt it

Being bad…

With no schedule I can be bad

if I choose to

Pills, bottles and falling out is

the day’s order

Having a reason to be out and

gone is easy

We all have people to look up to

at work

Many times there’s more than just

one and they have different rules

But I tried and was worse than grounded

for it

I am done and then some and putting

myself out for the weekend.


If I die before I wake…

There’s nothing left of me to take

No more rules

No more lies

No deceptions

No other nonsense

I’m away from pain

I’m free from the fall

I’m free from it all

I’ll not recover

I’ll be scarred

Nobody escapes 

Nobody surrenders

Nobody does ever get me

Never matters

Never is a point

Now I take my cue

Now I’m in hiding

Never gonna be me again

Not down with it

Nor do I care

I’ve fallen

Gone from the big fish in the

small pond

To the water drying up and me


The top of the line model to being


The fastest internet to becoming

like old dial up

A little puppy to an older, bigger 

dog with hip dysplasia 

Here and so important to being

a nobody

At times eventually we all do FALL

Copyright 2017 Paul McAleavey wwwpalfitness.wordpress.com

Living right by an airport…

It reminds me of The Blues Brothers train scene and it is a pain in the ass when woken up from the noise. Having kids and adults acting like them and screaming does piss me off. The wallmate playing music all the time and her mother seemingly high falls everywhere and my roommate constantly takes my frying pan, doesn’t clean it but instead allows other things in a greasy pan instead of merely rinsing and a quick clean. I am in a raw mood today…