Hot dogs and French fries

I do not like either. I may partake though

this means nothing 

I’m not trying to blend in or similar but

I do it my way

I don’t like garnishes or many condiments 

yet I have to get that taste out of my mouth

So, potato chips and the like take its turn 

against the angst

My life is defined about doing things I do 

not want to digest

Yet, like many things, I am forced to have 

them down my throat

What does this say about me? I take a lot 

of crap from all over

It means I get cheap and expensive shots

at times

What the hell ever as I get shit on one way

or another

I was the bigger person bla bla bla

What did it get me?, Not a damn thing

Family hating me

Family not knowing me

Who cares

I am going to face to face them

I am going to get what I DESERVE AND WANT

Fuck them all and fuck them hard

They had it easy

Try being an on call chauffeur with threats if I was not

Try being called at all hours to babysit an elder

Try being told to pick your child of a sister at jail twice as

a kid

Try having them and more judge you

Try being the most unlucky fuck around after all of your

trials

Try walking 15 feet in my shoes

Six word story number 4 part 79

“I am like a barbeque DONE”

Squat Challenge Day 23

Today is mainly cardio. Start off with 3 minutes of any cardio at a high clip. Then add your body weight to squats for 12 reps. 1 minute and do 5 sets. Next is either bleachers  or doing steps and do 6-12 flights and then lunges all on one side for 15 reps and do 4 sets with a minute of rest.

The monster is back in me….

I was completely content sleeping until 2 weeks ago. Now I am up and dpomg things I am unproud of. My body is giving out a lot and I have a monster schedule ahead if I get there. Many ppl just like and do not read, which I get but I am putting myself in peril and must leave soon or there will be consequences. I destroyed the bed and can’r fix the mess and avoided my lying roommate all day while he said do not worry all day for 10 hours. I am assed out and this is the last fucking time.

 

My experiment is down to weeks

What that means I am unsure of. Where I will go is the same. But I will make changes and get out from under anyone’s thumb. Yes I will head back home and i will have my friend see what of mine is left, including if the doggie survived though I am sure she was killed. I will have social services in a meeting for sure and I will have one with the department of employment as I was owed money. I will have a trip and it will be cheaper to fly myself and a friend here than to ship things if I go that route. But I am not sure just yet.

Six word story number 4 part 78

“I think I am done now”