Accidental mistake

Highs and lows 

Addition errors

Memory loss

Standing up

Falling down

Heads swimming

Legs buckling

Smashed into a wall

Woke up in a mess

Open wounds and sleepy

Past that and shaking

Legs and torso quiver 

Fell again and I’m out

Some of them want to use you

Some of those pretend they’re abused

They step up and let it out

No longer wanting to pout is it right?

Our relations are those in time abused

But that is also being put in a bad place

One that acts without prejudice or race

It also steers away from attacking a sex

But now all that is left is a song

 

Hung by dental floss 

It seems stronger and rougher

on a person

It can cut you quite easily

just it will hurt

No quick snap like in the old

days

Merely suffering but alas it’s 

better than other pains

I merely have to just pick a day

and time in this fake world 

2017 Copyright Paul McAleaveywwwpalfitness.wprdpress.com

Yay I finally got hit by a car….

It was bound to happen. Here there are actual motor vehicle laws that say if a bike is in the road give up a lane. Most people not only do not do that, they do not stop at signs, while coming out of driveways and jump into main roads causing 100s of weekly crashes.

I have pretty good reflexes even when I feel shitty. This I was all but dead. Tons of other cyclists and pedestrians travel with their down and we all have the right to be on the sidewalk, the bike lane and go with or against traffic.

So, today I am riding with traffic and another cyclist jumped out from a small bush looking down and was wearing headphones, I yelled to no avail and I jumped onto the main road and saw the car coming and he was looking down and I pushed hard and high against my bike and instead of getting run over and having my bike totaled as well as me being killed, I took a nasty hit. Mind you I have been very sad and have spent three days in bed to avoid a lot and that crap happens. Now a cop around when you need one as this guy did not stop.

Most people here pulled over for routine things end up getting arrested, lack of insurance and otherwise and this adds to my list of dumb shit that happens to me while careful that I could have been compensated. Instead my left leg is hurting like hell to go along with my right foot.

If I commit a malicious act is that intentional?

Meaning I am in defense mode

otherwise known as protecting

I may have no other way, what would

you do if stolen from and up against it?

I am trying to ignore said person

But it is difficult for me…

Thrown down a hole…

It is dark and covered

some 30 feet down

It may have been 1000s

because a snare got me

Too tight to climb out now

Covered in dirt and insects

No way out it seems from this

perilous time

My heart beat does start to

slow

I feel the trembling and the

cold beckoning me to quit

I am about to and can’t believe

I am about to

No memory of things being right

No help coming from anywhere

in sight

I was a cog and now just a mess

to be cleaned afterward…

2017 Copyright Paul McAleavey wwwpalfitness.wordpress.com

Belittled

Left for dead

Given no voice

Have had the rug pulled out from under me

Besmirched, dissed, put down and worse

Lost in a manner of seconds

Words wasted as well as time

Work had and lost

Relationships ending all around

Simply not good enough

Seriously feeling anxious and sad

No way to have prepared

It happened so quickly

It happened without cause

It seemed better than it was

A facade dressed up as a present

A curse and not a blessing

An IQ that dropped to nothing

Elevation dropped through the floor

Evanescence throughout my being

Early gains are now massive losses…